Pulsing

I promised you an update, Sorry i’m late by a day. But it doesn’t really matter. What matter is the content of this post.

First of all, Happy 21st Birthday Love. I hope you had a great one. :D

Here i go.

You know what, the word ‘love’ doesn’t really mean anything to me till you came along and showed me what its all about. You showed me how to love and to be loved. 

The 5 years and 6 months being with you has been the most wonderful quarter of my life. Although there are some obstacles and rough times during those years, but whatever stormy weather we go through, the sun will always come back up for us.

I always had this voice in my head telling me that you’re the one. And even without that voice, i’m still pretty sure you’re the one. Cause i’ve never felt such strong feelings for a person. I’ve never felt the need to change so much for someone.  

Siti Fatimah, i love you. For loving me unconditionally. For believing in me. For seeing past my flaws and accepting me for who i am. For having faith in me although i know i’m not promising enough. For always being there when i need you. For not judging me. For being being patient with me after so many problems that i’ve caused. For staying even though you know there are better ones out there.  

And i want you to know that, you don’t have to worry about me falling in love with another one or even having a crush on another one. Cause deep down, i know i am made for you and only you. No one else.

There are no words that can express how deeply in love i am with you. And i’m still falling deeper with every moment that passes by. 

I love you. I love you, from the edge of your toe nails to the edge of every strand of hair on your head. I love you, from your skin to the insides of your bones. I love you, from your body itself and your beautiful soul.

I want to love you till we get old and die. Can i?

Forever and a day.

Love,

Hamza. 

Baby! I love you!

& I’m going to miss you :(

- Your Girlfriend

I want you to think it over. Think about us. Think about me. And most importantly, think about yourself. Cause in the end, it’s your happiness that matter. 

Something, anything.

7.0

Hey,

So today i woke up at 12. Watched a movie before going to work. Went to work at the usual timing. Ended work quite early today, around 8 i was already done. Went home straight from work and stayed home. Watched a movie again and now i’m here updating my day.

Hope you had a great day :D.

A couple more days left. 

I miss you.

6.0

The days truly seems to be getting slower than usual.

Sunday. Nothing out of the ordinary. Woke up at 12, did nothing till 4. Cleaned up the house after that. Met fau, izat, mach and aul at around 8 just chilled and went to get cigarettes. Came home at 1030. Watched a movie, And now i’m doing nothing. I wish i had something to do. I guess i’m just gonna just try and force myself to sleep, cause thats the only thing i can do to make the time move faster.

If only today was the 29th. I miss you.

Morning 5.0

I feel so disconnected from you. Yesterday, i was so tired yet i couldn’t even fall asleep. I was just thinking too much i guess. I fell asleep like maybe about an hour before i had to wake up again. I didn’t thought it could have affected me this much. Your absence and whatever happened before you went. Its too much, i try my best to distract myself but it doesn’t work. Cause somehow, some way, even when i’m busy, there’ll be this moment when everything around me just gets blurry and my mind will drift away and all i think about is you. I miss you so much, i really do. It’s eating me up.

Another week to go. Hope this week will pass by quickly.

Goodnight.

Morning 4.0

Hello Siti Fatimah.

Today after work i went to afghan to have dinner with dad. Had nasi ayam. Then after that i went home. Then around 11, Helmi came over because he wanted to take microsoft office from my computer. Then went to kedai cina to meet izzat and aiyoub. Went to mr prata to eat and chill till 2plus. Went home after that. Now i’m at home and im going to bed cause im working tmr. Im so sad i’m not meeting you tmr. sighh. Mum, dad and musa will be going to melaka tmr to send my aunty for urut. Not sure whether they’ll be coming home or not.

Anyway, i might be meeting aiyoub tmr around 6pm tau. 

Message me once you’re at the hotel or something okay.

I miss you. I really cant distract myself. You’re always there, even when i’m busy at work or doing anything. Don’t do this to me anymore please. 

Day 3.0

I’ve got nothing to update now. Getting ready for work. Im hungry, there’s no food at home. :(. 

29th, please come faster. I’m truly missing you right now.